Tag Archive | God

What if your life could change?

I’ve been really contemplating and praying a lot..while still taking my anti depressant..partly waiting for my brain to be more stable..and to want to live again..will the world around me change? ..probably not.. But I have been on a journey,,all of my life.,always looking on the outside of me..for someone to love me.,people to like me.,accept me.,tell me I am good enough,smart enough..blah blah..I guess I have been a bit lazy too..but I won’t say I haven’t worked for things.,yes I have gotten help for bills when desperate..and other times I busted my butt trying to pay bills.,keep my car running.,Caring for my animals and myself..walking dogs and caring for pets.,and crafting,,and doing reiki and trying to find my path..my purpose..

Is the world just the world..and you have to be pretty enough..smart enough..thin enough..rich enough..does it matter? If you weren’t accepted in the world can you be able to find your place or continue hiding.,? What if it was possible..? What if even someone like me? Who was made fun of all my life..can the under dog ..living with stage 4 Cancer ..turn things around..? I mean honestly yes I wish I had a magic wand.,and money was no issue..I mean I do have a roof over my head and use of a car,,a small amount of cash each month..and food stamps.,but of course the fantasy would be..to not have to worry about money..be able to travel ..enjoy life..or maybe I could change my life step by step right where I am..sitting on my bed in sweats..in my childhood bedroom..

What if God really does exist and he can change things.,is it possible,,? I mean I know God won’t lift me out of bed and dress me etc..and I can do that for myself.,but if I prayed and asked God and the Angels ..is it possible for me to have a life..? A fulfilling life..? And not just about being loved and having money..but about being a part of life..does it start with thanking God for my bed..thank you God for my heart still beating..thank you for my vision..thank you that I am warm..does it matter that I have been cooped up for 5 days..and don’t have anyone asking me to a party or caring what I do..? Or even if anyone reads this..?is it possible that I can still have a life…right where I am..? Is it possible that I can find peace in this world..find someone to care for me…maybe I have a purpose ..maybe it’s not over yet..


New year, new thoughts for the future!


Happy New Year Everyone!

As some of you may know from reading my blog, I am living with stage 4 breast cancer..
Recently I had an epiphany..I wanted to use what I have learned from my journey to inspire, encourage, and give hope to especially newly diagnosed cancer patients..I am a certified Reiki Master Teacher and have decided to offer my services with a sliding scale fee to cancer patients ..I will never turn someone away that contacts me for healing just because they can’t pay…Heck..I will take cookies…It’s not about the money..

I have been sharing my new venture on Facebook and have received mainly positive responses..I did receive 2 negative comments..One from another healer who had cancer herself and claims to have healed herself..and was questioning me if I still had cancer and wanting to help others while I have cancer..Well first off..healers are not God..they get sick too..Anyone who understands healing will know that it heals more on an emotional level..stress and anxiety really can cause other health problems..so the best thing we can do for ourselves is keep the body calm and relaxed as much as possible..whether its receiving massage therapy,energy healing ,thru meditation,prayer..

I feel my experience from my journey can be of comfort to someone newly diagnosed who is petrified by
the ton of medical procedures being shoved down their throats..I will always recommend people to listen to their doctors, get second and third opinions and most importantly bring a friend or family member as a second set of ears.,and follow your own intuition..
I personally believe in complimentary therapies in combination with medical care from a qualified medical professional ..

I do want to be that light for others..and share you can still be of service and have something to offer even with a stage 4 diagnosis..and it’s just a diagnosis.,I am doing very well..None of us knows when our last day will be..so we try to find as much joy in each and every day..





I believe this in every ounce of my soul and live this..I pray for guidance daily and listen to what my intuition tells me.,this is why many times I will have several blog posts a day and some days none..maybe this particular day I felt led to share certain messages and maybe you the reader reading it now was meant to read it..Maybe you are suppose to share it with others,,so if you feel led please reblog or post to Facebook or twitter..<3 Learn to listen to your inner guidance..if it says write,,write..if it says craft..craft..if it says rest..rest..etc..

Don’t stop believing..

I just love this song..it doesn’t matter who sings it..but I still love Journey..but chose to share this version from Rock of Ages..

I have been praying quite a bit latey..to God..the Angels..and things are slowly happening..I was led to share my cancer story..so I wrote to several places.,shared it on twitter,,Facebook..Also I feel I have a gift to write and share many messages,,So I prayed in the shower for the angels to help me come up with ideas to bring in extra cash..a Facebook friend messages me saying she wanted to send me some craft supplies and maybe I can bring in some extra cash with it..and today I get a response from a woman who has an inspirational blog and may feature one of my articles..<3


Ask Susan for Guidance..


So once again I get inspiration in the middle of the night..I want to practice my writing skills, maybe make a name for myself..I am a Certified Usui Reiki Master Teacher..I am intuitive and an empath.and have been trying to work more with my own inner guidance..The angels..God..

and it came to me..why not start my own advice column..Iike a dear Abby..and I will try to help the best I can..plus we can make this blog more interactive..get my readers involved..

So if you have a question you would like help with..you can leave it in the comments below..or you can email it to me..and I will answer it on this page..

Send emails to..Susannj30@aol.com

So lets give it a try what’s on your mind..maybe I can help..

Peace and Blessings..

Susan ❤